Ever have a dream where you’re hanging out with a friend and she’s in a relationship with someone but the two of you end up kissing? Not like an intentionally planned kissed. Like one of those moments where your eyes just meet and then the kiss just slowly happens? At least right after that I remember apologizing because I knew she was in a relationship. But it was like time froze and we were in a completely different world of our own. Then some time had passed and we were hanging out again, I believe it was the same day, but now two more of our friends were there with us in what seemed like my dining room in my house. Our other two friends are in a relationship together. I don’t remember what we were doing but I think something happened to my friend that is in a relationship with another guy. I can’t remember what, if she like stubbed her toe or something. I just remember her making it into my arms and I just held her for a bit. Then there was a switch in this part where originally we were standing but then somehow we were sitting on the dining room floor. Our other two friends were sitting at the table. Then, as I was holding her, about to help her get up from the floor, she leaned and kissed me again, but I distinctly remember not kissing her back this time. Then there was another lapse in the dream and she was out of the room and I’m still sitting on the dining room floor with our friends at the table. This time they saw the kiss. And the only thing I remember them asking me was, “Why would you do that to [insert friends boyfriends name]?” I remember replying, kind of harshly I think, “I didn’t. If you didn’t notice, I didn’t actually kiss her back!” Then I got up and walked out of the room, a little aggravated at my friend who asked that question. Then the dream ended. I don’t know how to take it or what it means. I would never try to break up my friends relationship when she is happy with it currently. I don’t know. I have a feeling I’m going to be doing a lot of thinking for a while. Just what I needed. Not. What could it all mean? That’s my only question. I will admit that I do have some feelings for this friend and sometimes I think of how it could be if we were together. At least I don’t have a lot of work to do seeing as I’ll probably be pondering over this for a while.
January 15, 2011
Why? And what does it mean?